Hoho. Pammiieee.



Sadly, mei mei was sick. So he cabbed home.

Watched two movies for two consecutive days. I love you man and Ghosts of girlfriends past. hehe. Nice nice. I dunno why the rating are not too good but to me, the movie's awesome. & i noe im supposed to be studying day and night instead of watching movies and having fun. but all study and no fun equals to trying to study for nothing.

Sigh. Feel damn bored at home. But dun feel like going out either. Shall try to study chem today. Maybe start with organic shud be easier. I hate physical chem. & i think i haf chucked maths totally aside for a week now. Oh mann. Im just not used to doing math unless its homework. & I haven started on the 30 essay bulletin. OH NO. i dun wanna rush it all. But i dunfind it equally impt as the H2 papers since GP papers are over. For now. boooo.

One week left to studying for the H2 papers. Cos on the last sunday of the holidays i'll be out. but im happy to be! I wanna get my bro home. I miss him. Maybe NS is really a blessing in disguise. I never really talk to him but now its almost every night that we talk on the phone or sms. For a few mins only though. Absence makes the heart grow fonder. LOL.

But still, we shud always treasure the ones we haf around. I miss my frens esp yinlin! Liwen's like MIA luhh. Mic, rarely in contact. Sigh. Alan, im sorry cant really spend much time with you. However, the frens i haf around me presently are awesome. Pam cand ken.. Without them, life will be so dull. & i'll be less motivated to study too. HAHA. There's never a day without laughters. & i noe my frens are always there for me.

Some things thats kinda old. LOL.
But they're fun times.
orientation 07 pics.


& i tink ive just added quite a number of pics on my blog entries. Even after publishing. Pictures makes the blog more colourful. i think.

Pictures of some hard studying and fun eating. Heeh.









No swing for mei mei. (:

LOL. Woke up at 6 plus, its 8.30am now. & im still awake. Its a wonder. cos i had troubles sleeping ytd night. But i tink i'll be tired halfway thru the day. Sigh.

Feel sad luhh. Rel with my bro has been pretty much rough for say, the past few months?? But who say i never really cared. I find it quite hurtful tt some ppl just disregard me. I mean, isn sibling ties more closer than grandparents?? Well, since they wanna go so much then go la. I just haf to emo here alone. Although i tink its unfair. Like seriously. My sis can go too cos she's younger but i tink i spent more years with him. BOO! Atleast ytd spent the whole day togeda. But im still so so sad. I feel like crying all over again. This morn i feel like crying even more when he wiped my tears. I noe he loves me.

Sigh. Later gg to holland for coldrock n study ofcos. Hope it'll cheer me up.

Haha. Its been quite awhile since i blogged again. No more emo life. No more. Past few days haf been quite fun actually. Got the chance to play with a baby boy dressed as a girl. but he's so cute and pretty. It was a really fun day. Cos the lil boy was so happy. & i find it such a coincident that i was back home early tt day. Usually i'll come home ard evening aft studying. we've been studying almost everyday. Hurray.


Wednesday we went to science centre to see the da vinci exhibition. It was really interesting but very challenging for the legs. LOL. After the exhibition we went round sci centre looking at all the pther things there.When to the lil kid's section where there are newly hatched kids. & small animals where the boys force themself through the low ceiling section just to see. It was quite funny. & the 8 of us were playing some funny game; trying to match the sound with the underwater creatures. Tink we tried very long before we got all 8 right. Haha. Had dinner at IMM. Spaghetti tools. Damn boring lor. I tink the food dun look nice n there's not much of a choice. How can they run out of fish n chips mann.. Like seriously.

Just some pics. quite sad cant take any photos in the da vince exhibition.


Today had lunch with joey, jiat, marvin, kenneth and candice at pizza hut. Tts to celebrate joey's 18th. Haha. Hope she liked the gifts. (: It was quite a short meal. I tink. LOL. Quite sad though tt pam cant join us. Aft lunch, headed to bpp just to study awhile with cand and ken. It was necessary. Cos studying alone is almost like not studying.

wheeheee. Next week i wanna study at holland. I want coldrock. Icecream anyone?

Ppl say their family is the world. But wad if the world has given up on you. Then ur life will just crumble down. So isit still wise to sit down and trust that the world will support u no matter wad.. Ive no idea. but i haf great doubts about it.

Maybe its really all my fault. All mine. Ive always been thought as the black sheep. I never understood why. I believe my intentions are all misinterpreted and misunderstood but i never knew why. I tot i have quite a lucid expression of words and emotions. Well, maybe not.

Maybe i shud give up.

But sometimes, its rather true. better to haf one emo. Then so many others emo. Sigh.

I just feel damn terrible. Damn useless. Guilty maybe. Maybe i shudn haf said anything. But she, forced me. She tink she can solve any prob. We're both wrong. But the blame is on me. I just dun understand.

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Econs paper tmr. Screams! For the past two days haf been studying with pam n kenneth n xian zheng but at different locations. but i can conclude tt the school is still the best place to study. HAHA. i stil haf a lil bit more to study. Hope can finish by tonight. The problem abt studying with frens, there may be quite a no of distractions. The good abt studying with frens is that it makes studying mroe fun and somehow, pushes me to study. Cos if i study alone, nothing gets done. Heeh.

SGC briefing tmr aft paper. Sounds damn boring luhh. Sian. Shall eat my dinner now.