Promos drawing near. I feel like im being less n less of myself. Or maybe its just always in me but was rarely shown. i feel like im getting more serious than i tot i would be. Kinda scary cos i tink i cant control my emotions/ temper well. Oh mann. almost chao Mugger mode reached. Mission accomplished. The next worry is :will all these produce results?? Heh. Abit scary la cos i haf never reached any period in my life where i take 'studies' more serious than now. Yea, its 'studies'. Cos tt word is far too general. I still feel reluctant to go for certain lessons. But i am putting in alot of effort in subjects which i wish to do well. Not tt i dun intend to do well in all my subj. Its just tt certain subjects deserve more attention. LOL. Oh well, i hope ppl ard me do understand tt i do haf my quiet moments.

As time passes, i kinda feel sick of the subj which i used to like. tink i liked it cos its easy but i feel tt its getting a lil too boring. Chem found its way into my heart. Think for the past few days tt ive been revising chem over and over again to the point tt im dreaming of my chem mindmaps has made me fond of studying more of chem. but tt shudn be the case cos there are other impt subjects too. Suresh has been a great help. Well i mean, he's really a fun teacher. Can relate well to us and noes the exact things tt we need to noe. I guess he's been putting alot alot of effort in trying to help his students and ensure tt all of us can do well. But tt also means tt he has lesser time for consultation esp when he tinks you're not so weak in chem. ): I need consultation. Boost my confidence. Please.

Papers are said to be set easy. Tts good and bad. Well, not cos there will be abell curve drawn or wadsoever. No moderations i heard. But then, its a matter of morale. The feeling of not being able to do well despite an easy paper is very unfavourable. the good thing is tt, there's more hope to reach my "unreasonable" goals. LOL. Tink im just retarded. haf my own goals but at the same time, it seems a lil unachieveable at this rate. ive been slacking for too long and started mugging alil too late. Heh. Nvm. Theres no use giving up. Work hard all the way. Please the teachers. Show them ive got effort. LOL.

& i haf been tinking. What does it take to be envious of? N what does it take to be admired instead? Theres really no difference actually. Guess it depends on the character of different ppl. Some ppl just cant stand to see others getting much better than he is. While other will admire and get inspired or sumthing. Well, wadeva la. I just feel tt everyone shud never haf any bad intentions towards other ppl and think abt the consequences of their actions. Anw, when theres ppl out there who just wanna bring u down, one shud not bother a single bit. Trust in yourself.

I actually feel for zul. He's one of my close frens who is really one of the nicest guy in the world. Tink he's sometimes too nice tt he's so easily bullied. LOL. n im one of those who love to bully him but i tink he noes i was just playing. He rocks the world of friends mann. He has the brains and never failed to cheer me up when im down. Can get the honest opinions for him and best understanding too! And i am so touched by what he has on his new blog. His creative juices never cease.