Bleah. I think ive successfully stressed myself out. The temptation to take up my old habit of procrastination is overwhelming. I could have resisted. But i let it have me. Now the guilt inside me is growing bigger and bigger and has stated to grate the walls around my heart &lungs & intestines. Ok, crap.. I wanna get out of this mann. Can somebody help? Uh. And they say the greatest fear in every soul is the fear of being too powerful. Is that really so? Well okay. It kinda make sense. You see, im scared tt every single act i do is so powerful tt the consequences are too huge for me to deal with.

Mixed emotions. I seriously dunno why. And to lil sister: I seriously appreciate tt u never failed to show your concern but really, im fine. I think.

I miss the times when i was the one she's always proud of. I miss the times when I was his only lil girl. And i miss the times when i dun have to worry about his health. I miss the times i could tell u truly that i love you. And i miss the times when i can tell u i miss you. I just miss the times when I don't have to be sad thinking about happy moments.